The team. My team

The team has reached a level beyond any other.. I find myself in a space where I would not usually see myself in. A level where passion is overriding all form of logic. I'm starting to feel for the team in ways I never would have imagined. I have given too much to give it up. If all this effort comes to naught, I will still pursue this dream with endeavor to fulfill my ultimate dream. I love this sport to bits. I eat, sleep, breathe it.. Its so much a part of my life, its too much to take away. I believe in the team. I believe in everyone that gives their all in that very boat I row, for I will row with every might I have to cross that finish line in perfect fashion. As winners in our hearts and minds, as brothers who have come a long way to where we are today. Aggression. Adrenalin. Put these two together and nothing can stop us. I believe. I believe.

Ready, Aim, ROW!

Dragon boating has taken on a newer meaning in my life ever since I took it up in Polytechnic. I believe its true that dragon boating is not actually a sport, its almost well like a lifestyle. I can't wait to head down to Kallang on Saturday to start training again. It feels like forever since the last time I was in the water feeling the waves in my face. Maybe the exams were a good time for me to refresh myself for the end of the season finale to the June race. Let's push on to the finals! June race here I come!

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Have a nice day to everyone reading my blog!!

The craziest dragon boat team mates.

When you're rowing in a boat full of asses, expect that we will row the race like asses.. LOL. I can't believe we still got 2nd despite the cock ups. It was fun though. I can smell the cookie coming.. haha.. it was really fun..

Time I posted up new stuff again!!

Been a long long while since I posted anything up. I guess I've been making too many excuses to post anything new since I entered NUS. Well, if you don't mind this being a long long post.

The past year in NUS has been really enlightening for myself, knowing that it would be a great challenge entering one of the the best Universities in the land. I learnt alot about myself, the people around me and most of all, about the world around me. I have never thought learning in Uni would be so enjoyable; less the tests and exams of course. What I mean when it came to learning is not necessarily in terms of academics but in terms of my ability to push myself further.

Honestly, I have never really thought I would even live the type of life I would be living in Uni now. I thought my Uni life would indeed be a quiet one where I would roam around from class to class without the intrusion of "people" whom I deem too smart for me to "acclimatise" myself to. Well, I was wrong.

People are University are a practical bunch. Some study really hard, oblivious to their surroundings in the pursuit of grades. Others are really the opposites. They play so hard, they almost totally forgot they're students. Others are just the in betweens. I'm one of them. I really love Dragonboat, but guess what I mug like an idiot too. haha..

I have never believed that I would get into the NUS. Guess what, I'm in NUS and I'm actually rowing for my dream team. Whether I would win any "cookies" or not really depends on whether I would build up my own dream team with my batch. I believe we can. I believe with all my heart we can win those "cookies" aka medals. Btw it seems inevitable that I would pursue this even in Uni even though many thought it would be ridiculous to do it after poly. I have never really thought about it at all I guess. So many of my best friends whom I really can depend on came from dragonboat. I really didn't know what would happen if I didn't continue pursuing this sport. I'm making a guess that if I continued playing soccer all the way when I was 16, I think I may have quit studying. It's a trait Mats just have. Quitting school and playing the guitar.

The NUS dragonboat team has been a joy to train with considering the guys that have been making training ever so fun. Darryl aka Fat boy got the GAY thumbs up when I found his long lost best employee of the month for NUM picture online. Adrian Soh gained his latest title of King of King Edward aka KKE after the last run on the route. Wang Chen defnitely got the best award for most humourous China man ever in the NUS dragonboat team not withstanding that he's the only China man. haha. Glenn the Man, Filbert aka Bird Bird and Aayush aka "Aryan" adds up to the fun when we row on the boats and when we lift the iron in the gym. Not forgetting Amos "the Diva" lawyer and Ian aka "mr best skin" who totally rock the scene with their dance moves.

Well with the semester coming to an end, I hope more of the fun and laughter peace and joy comes my way. Looking forward to my internship with REDSPORTS to try out sports journalism. It's gonna be hard but I'm glad I'm taking it up. Time to head back to my books soon cos i'm way behind time!!

Time moved on so fa

I messed up again..

Sigh.. I messed up when i shouldn't have. I didn't know why i had to say those things but I just know that they were really selfish words. I know she cares but I don't understand why I need more from her when she already has given so much? I need to just knock my brains out everytime I do this. I miss her badly. I wished I hadn't been so selfish. Why did I have to do that? Why?

I survived NUS.

It seems only like a short while ago since I blogged. But it felt even longer than before. Looking at those results only further emphasizes the reality of grades in the lives of every Singaporean and their pursuit to get the ultimate degree everyone is looking for. I dread doing exams because it just does not justify that someone is good at work just because of his or her grades. It just does not prove anything. I doubt the system but yet I have to go through with it for the sake of a piece of paper. A piece of paper that many still believe hold the key to their success in Singapore. It's a different world out there my friends. One that does not believe that grades count at all. I will prove otherwise that success can take another form not only in terms of grades. I know that this is not the end of it all.

NUS RAG and NDP

Starting my journey into NUS could not get any more exciting as this; NUS Bizad FOC followed by Bizad O-WEEK followed by NUS RAG & FLAG day. Though the past few weeks has been a topsy turvy ride, I think NUS rag day helped to raise my spirits altogether. I was expecting much more, but how can I expect much more from a a faculty that has only 600 freshies as compared to the thousands in the other faculties. The Bizaders did great coz we won the President's Overall Challenge Shield again! I'm glad we did coz it proved how much more we juniors need to prove ourselves to defend the shield again next year. I took some photos of the event. It was really kinda cool!





























NDP 08 is like tomorrow and I'm feeling abit jittery about it. Maybe because it is going to be on live television and the whole of Singapore is watching. Still, the show has to go on and I think it will be a good show nonetheless. I'm glad I'm participating in the show as an ensign. I know I'll be proud to know when I look back that I was involved in the National Day parade holding my unit's colours.

I'm looking forward to National Day with happiness and pride as well as with sadness in my heart. I think I got my just deserts for breaking my promises to others in my teens when the person broke every promise she ever made when we broke up. I'm still feeling the pain as much as I tell myself I've moved on. Sometimes I wonder whether I can open up my heart ever again. I'm tired but I got to look forward to something new. I hope there will be something new to erase those sad memories.

Its too late..

I'm holding on a rope
Got me 10 feet off the ground
I'm hearin' what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me then you go and cut me down
But wait
You tell me that you're sorry didn't think I'd turn around and say:

That it's too late to apologize
Too late
Said it's too late to apologize
Too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
I need you like a heart needs a beat, it's nothing new
Yeah
I loved you with a fire red now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry lord, the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize
Too late
Said it's too late to apologize
Too late

I'm holding on a rope
Got me 10 feet off the ground

Surprise surprise

I googled my name for fun and guess what I found. Article of me way back in Sep 07.
Nice to see that MINDEF took notice.. :)

Fulfilling a dream

You could say that Officer Cadet (OCT) Muhd Sahfahri Bin Supar's dream has come true.

Even before his enlistment into full-time National Service, he had "aimed to come to OCS because [he] thought it was an opportunity to show [his] potential as a leader, not only in the SAF, but in the future."

And he has, indeed, made good, going on to win the Best in PT award.

"I feel very privileged and honoured to get the award, considering that there were many others who were fitter than I," he revealed.

OCT Sahfahri said the most marked change that he had noticed about himself - becoming fitter - was "a reward in itself".

Together with 194 other OCTs, he was commissioned at the SAFTI Military Institute on 8 Sep, at a parade reviewed by Minister for the Environment and Water Resources Yaacob Ibrahim.

In his speech, Dr Yaacob reminded the OCTs that "professionalism seldom comes naturally or easily", congratulating them on their success in the cadet course, which he felt "bears testament to that drive and the will to do [their] utmost under the most adverse of conditions".

To graduate from OCS is no simple feat. Over the course of 38 weeks, cadets underwent a series of demanding and realistic training exercises, as well as advanced obstacle courses and exacting physical training.

In the face of these challenges, OCT Sahfahri did not falter, and said that it was all "manageable".

"OCS has put in a very good programme of progressive training which allows the cadets to gain fitness without pushing them too hard," he said.

Out of the 194 OCTs commissioned were four who hailed from the Royal Brunei Armed Forces.

Cyberpioneer spoke to OCT Mohd Hishamuddin Bin Hj Marzoki, one of the four Bruneian cadets.

"It was the first time I was away from my family," he said. "But after these nine months, I’m used to it."

What really helped him to settle in was the hospitality of his Singaporean friends, whom he found "really very friendly and very helpful".

According to OCT Hishamuddin, he would "always hang out with [the Singaporeans] and get to know their Singaporean culture."

But regardless of where they come from, both OCTs Sahfahri and Hishamuddin share a common bond: their time together in OCS.

Last updated on 11 Sep 2007

Dead..

I felt like I just died. A part of my soul leaving my body for good. Never to return again. I feel like I just died an instant death where I got myself stabbed for being in the wrong place at the wrong time. I felt like I just died, when I thought my dreams were coming true only to find out it was actually a nightmare. I felt like I just died from a sudden heart attack I could never have fathomed of experiencing. I got caught rooted to the spot; where there was nothing I could do to turn back the hands of time.

I'm tired. I don't understand. It seems like I can never understand why fate has dealt me a similar blow as my past. Somehow I still believe all this a test. A test of my courage and fortitude to pursue bigger things. Yet somehow I can't easily let go of these feelings. I used to blame others alot but yet I have seen nothing wrong to blame except myself for giving myself that inch of hope everyday. I got myself to blame for hoping.. I'm tired. Dear God, what have I done wrong. Why do u let me taste success in everything else except the one I truly treasure? I'm tired.

-heartbroken

Mixed feelings..

I'm going into University fairly excited yet I'm quite nervous about starting school all over again. I can't imagine myself going through the system like I did in polytechnic and I don't really know if I can do it at all. I'm feeling a bit dejected. I could say totally over-awed by the people around me, my new surroundings and my next phase of my life. I think I am afraid of facing the civilian world again after getting so used to the Army for the past 2 years of my life. I'm not sure whether life after ORD is really the life I've been looking forward to at all.. I am having these mixed feelings because I don't really know what I want to look forward to in school at all.. Other than getting the grades, I felt I already accomplished what I wanted to do in Polytechnic. So will I get to do something different in NUS? Honestly, I'm not sure. The anticipation is keeping me on my toes until the day I start school. Till then I'll just have to count the days down to the day I hang up my rifle for good.

Meeting that someone new has been emotional; both in its good ways and bad. I really hope for the best, for I there is nothing else I'd rather do then to be with the special someone for as long as I can. I hope everything will soon iron itself out. She's too good to be true. She's really too good to be true. Somehow I think I'm not even good enough for her. I can't match up to her. Yet, I hope I can give her all I can give. :)

NDP continued..

I am already feeling lethargic from all the marching from the NDP rehearsals as well as the actual parades on the saturdays. Somehow I wish it would all end sooner. I know the National Day Parade is the biggest parade in Singapore's calendar year, but mark my words it is no mean feat. The people we have to deal with becomes the biggest challenge for anyone involved in the NDP when conflicts arise from the many who are so enthusiastic about making the parade the best. It can be pressurising for anyone brought under the limelight to perform in front of 27000 pair of eyes but what gives me the most pressure is when I see different faces in a makeshift team that is incapable of performing. I am very much a team player and I really hate to see things like this happen, yet it is truly beyond my control. I wish for the NDP to be the best performance for the colour party especially because it will be on live television. More so because it will be my final contribution in my short but eventful career in the armed forces. I hope there would be more of the adrenalin rush to come in the next few performances. I hope I will see the best of the colour party on that very day of 9 August.

Relief..

The feeling of relief cannot be understated when the other party is forgiving after a heated argument. This feeling is all too good to be true. I hope it'll keep the flame burning, going strong. Thanks guys. You helped me through this small hump. :P

Back From Camp.. BIZAD CAMP!

To think that I almost thought of not registering for BIZAD camp, I almost missed the chance to meet many more new peeps for the new school sem coming up. Honestly, if there was any camp that I easily describe as the one that gave me a kaleidescope of emotions throughout the time, it definitely had to be RETROSPECTIF. As a freshie, I looked at the camp from many perspectives; both from a participant as well as the organisers. I could only comment that I had too high expectations from peeps who tried their best at executing the camp at this scale generally for the first time. Yet, I felt happy knowing that I made great friends with other freshies as well as the seniors who really made the camp even more fun than I thought it would be. Guess my life in NUS wouldn't be as bad as I thought after all, ever since realising that these guys from JC were very much human as I was and they appreciated the company of someone who came from a different background from them. These guys really knew what having fun means and to think that I had stereotypes of them. Well, I'll be waiting to see more of what's to come in NUS. Especially knowing that I got nominated to be in something BIG! LOL! Being in BIZAD really rocks! Never regretted choosing NUS BIZ! Woo!

My Final Farewell..

Sadness fills the heart the past few days knowing that I have lost someone I felt was so important to contributing to what I have become today. Our fates crossed in a simple interview that made his impact on my life all the more significant. A friend who was jovial, humorous and strong willed, I knew he would make so much of an impact to so many other lives in his short yet significant life. If only there was a way to turn back the hands of time, there would be many more things I wished I had said to him before my final farewell. So now as he moves on, I only wish that his legacy remains to be carried on by people who have been touched by this brave soul. For that I salute you. You'll stay in my heart forever.<3

Happiness

What is this word happiness? A word that is so overused, many think it doesn't really co-exist in the hustle and bustle of the city. Well I believe in the pursuit of happiness as much as it is a cliche to the movie of the same name. It is a feeling of intense emotions that can bring someone much joy to his or her world. I love the feeling when I am on the receiving end of this feeling. It seems like all happiness begets happiness as I consciously pursue it. It seems like more and more good things continue to come my way the more I am happy. With all my energy, I spread this happiness to all to those around me for happiness is infectious. Thank god for I would never exchange my experiences in my life for anything. I am in the happiest moment of my life right now and I will never exchange it for anything.

The Battle has just begun..

Studying again. It seems an indomitable task considering it has been 3 years since I last touched a text book depicting any form of quotation from any professor of sorts. I'm starting to feel the new playing field I'm competing on especially since receiving news of my entrance into NUS. Not that I'm not looking forward to it. It's just that it won't be the same playing field I was on in poly. It feels as if I just entered a battlefield.

One where weapons are in play instead of the ordinary ball being playfully passed around. I can imagine the bullets flying around and shrapnel throwing itself about all over me in University. I can imagine the professors brandishing weapons of mass destruction at the freshmen at every oppotunity they can get; using their superior terminology of business terms in their pursuit to brainwash the meek freshmen. Seniors in school wielding looks resembling arrows awaiting to be released at the freshmen who steps on their toes. "Ooh.. The freshie!", they'll go. I can imagine the number of bombs that will land on me at the eleventh hour in the moments of madness before the exams. Yet, I'm not afraid. I'm thrilled.

The thrill of it all. The thrill of going through the battlefield I call NUS. Going through NS, I don't really think anything can be tougher than going through the jungles in my LBV and long 4. I'll win the war; battle by battle. Trust a soldier to go through school with a mindset of a soldier. Guess I am a soldier at heart with the discipline and will of an officer. Nothing is impossible. Or should I say IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING!

Butterflies..

Looking back over the past week, luck seems to have been swinging towards my favour; NUS acceptance letter, taking part in National Day, my health seems to be improving and I guess getting closer to my friends as well. It really is an irony how the good things in life just comes in windfalls when I least expect it. I could least expect myself to feel the way I'm feeling right now. The gut feel of knowing something good is about to happen. Something that I may have waited quite some time for. Only time can tell if things turn out the way they should. Only time will tell. Feeling butterflies in my stomach and I don't understand why..

Thought, Think, Thinking..

I had a great time with my some of my poly friends yesterday maybe because this was the first time we met this year. Meeting them really reminds me of my days in Poly. Without them I would have never got to where I am today. Yet, I can sense many of them have begun to move on with their lives and I am happy for them. Some of them have moved to beyond where I am right now, studying for their degrees and so on. Yet, my dreams seem so distant from where they are headed. For I am thinking..

I'm getting tired. Tired of the fact that I face the same old thoughts everyday from the people around me. I'm tired; hearing the same old way of moving ahead in life, of buying a new car, of signing on in the Army etc etc. I'm tired of hearing how people get so excited going into a local university and everyone else praising them for it. I'm tired because all those dreams are not my dreams. I'm tired of people not facing up to the reality of the choices they are making in their lives. My heart is telling me to do something else I know I am destined for. My heart is asking me to do it for my family. If I ever stood for something, it has to be this. Jiayou Saf! I can do it. I know I can.