I messed up again..

Sigh.. I messed up when i shouldn't have. I didn't know why i had to say those things but I just know that they were really selfish words. I know she cares but I don't understand why I need more from her when she already has given so much? I need to just knock my brains out everytime I do this. I miss her badly. I wished I hadn't been so selfish. Why did I have to do that? Why?