A new beginning.. Leading the wing

I think the week ended very well considering the fact that I did not sustain any major injuries after field camp. And guess what, I just took on the role as Cadet Wing Commander on Thursday to serve another 4 weeks being an appointment holder. Haha.. When is it going to stop at all.. Hmm, It really can be a once in a lifetime experience for me and I think I am doing it rather well already other than the small hiccups along the way. It is true how much more important human relations is when it comes to leading. Especially in an environment where you see more leaders than followers. I have been observing the way the previous Cadet Wing Commander has been carrying out his role. True I did criticise him, but then I realise now that being in his position, I must do more than what he did to earn the trust from the wing and build its camaraderie. Every step of the way, I really conciously observe my own actions as to how I lead these people. To always know your role in the wing, to always know what you have to do to keep the wing running. I think it will be a fun ride, since the appointment will test my limits on where I am on the leadership scale. One thing I promise to myself is that I will never let them down, I will not overpromise and under deliver to the wing. I know that I am the best CWC that will ever lead Hotel Wing. Tough times don't last, Tough men do!

Moments..

The past week has been a daunting one. One that kept me asking one hundred and one questions what my life became after I took on the role as a protector of the nationsince October last year. I think now I realise how much officers are supposed to take on huge roles and responsibilities. It is too much sometimes when they expect so much from us but then I realise my limitations and weaknesses when it those moments giving up kept knocking. Moments when your body almost shuts down on you but you are still pressing on with your mind. Moments when the weight of equipment on your shoulders take a back seat when you have to push on people weaker than you. Moments when you ask yourself why you are sacrificing your time and risking your life for something that has made you be thrown to a corner to fend for yourself. It is scary to conciously realise your reactions to people you do not like, instructors who treat you worse than dogs and people who just do not appreciate your work. But all the reactions comes as a choice and I will remember that a split second of that thought in my mind making that choice can make or break my life. Disciplined thought really create disciplined habits and disciplined habits really make an officer. I brought away alot of learning points in my previous week in OCS. I hope to see more. Good or bad I'll make the best of it. Press on Saffy, press on..

What do I do now?

Sometimes life just gets tougher even before you can expect it. Having the time away from home and not enjoying the army just gets really crazy to think about it. The past week was one of the toughest I have ever experienced. With or without an appointment, I think it is tough as it is. I hope my Mum can understand. She has been worrying ever since I was enlisted in the army for these past few months. I thk the both of my parents keep thinking about my safety and they never really thought I grew up. I really want to pass out as an officer for them as well as for myself. I hope things will go smoothly soon. All these obstacles will pass by. I just know it. The good things will come soon enough. God give me the strength. Press on Saffy, press on..