The past week has been a rather difficult week for me in all sense of the word I guess. It has not been as smooth as I thought it out to be. Internally, i just knew that I was suffering quietly in my own world. It was really tiring, just realising for myself the roles, responsibilities and significance in the army. There is really very little to motivate me in the army, knowing that every day we face immense pressure to perform under extreme situations. Take for example when we had to dig throughout the day and night with barely 4 hours of sleep in 2 days. It was just crazy, almost insane. Is it just that my expectations being too high? Or is it just the people around me? It was really emotionally tiring knowing that the time and space I would need just drifts away just because of my responsibilities to the nation. The last thing I need is for me to drift away from friends and loved ones. Honestly, the past week of field camp, going through platoon drills, digging throughout the night and battling stress and the need for sleep has really put me almost beyond my emotional threshold. At least I know now, when I need to keep sane and relaxed under those circumstances. Yup, it has been a difficult week but testament to true leadership, I must continue to learn about my differences with others as well as the weaknesses in myself to really learn my true worth in my life. That dream of commissioning as an officer has not left my mind. I thought the visuals became stronger after attending the rehearsal for the commissioning parade. I could already see myself there, I just know I will be there at all costs.. Press on Saffy, press on..
"HE WHO TREADS SOFTLY GOES FAR" -Anonymous
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