Tuesday, December 23, 2008
I survived NUS.
Friday, August 08, 2008
NUS RAG and NDP
NDP 08 is like tomorrow and I'm feeling abit jittery about it. Maybe because it is going to be on live television and the whole of Singapore is watching. Still, the show has to go on and I think it will be a good show nonetheless. I'm glad I'm participating in the show as an ensign. I know I'll be proud to know when I look back that I was involved in the National Day parade holding my unit's colours.
I'm looking forward to National Day with happiness and pride as well as with sadness in my heart. I think I got my just deserts for breaking my promises to others in my teens when the person broke every promise she ever made when we broke up. I'm still feeling the pain as much as I tell myself I've moved on. Sometimes I wonder whether I can open up my heart ever again. I'm tired but I got to look forward to something new. I hope there will be something new to erase those sad memories.
Sunday, August 03, 2008
Its too late..
Got me 10 feet off the ground
I'm hearin' what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me then you go and cut me down
But wait
You tell me that you're sorry didn't think I'd turn around and say:
That it's too late to apologize
Too late
Said it's too late to apologize
Too late
I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
I need you like a heart needs a beat, it's nothing new
Yeah
I loved you with a fire red now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry lord, the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid
It's too late to apologize
Too late
Said it's too late to apologize
Too late
I'm holding on a rope
Got me 10 feet off the ground
Surprise surprise
Nice to see that MINDEF took notice.. :)
Fulfilling a dream
You could say that Officer Cadet (OCT) Muhd Sahfahri Bin Supar's dream has come true.
Even before his enlistment into full-time National Service, he had "aimed to come to OCS because [he] thought it was an opportunity to show [his] potential as a leader, not only in the SAF, but in the future."
And he has, indeed, made good, going on to win the Best in PT award.
"I feel very privileged and honoured to get the award, considering that there were many others who were fitter than I," he revealed.
OCT Sahfahri said the most marked change that he had noticed about himself - becoming fitter - was "a reward in itself".
Together with 194 other OCTs, he was commissioned at the SAFTI Military Institute on 8 Sep, at a parade reviewed by Minister for the Environment and Water Resources Yaacob Ibrahim.
In his speech, Dr Yaacob reminded the OCTs that "professionalism seldom comes naturally or easily", congratulating them on their success in the cadet course, which he felt "bears testament to that drive and the will to do [their] utmost under the most adverse of conditions".
To graduate from OCS is no simple feat. Over the course of 38 weeks, cadets underwent a series of demanding and realistic training exercises, as well as advanced obstacle courses and exacting physical training.
In the face of these challenges, OCT Sahfahri did not falter, and said that it was all "manageable".
"OCS has put in a very good programme of progressive training which allows the cadets to gain fitness without pushing them too hard," he said.
Out of the 194 OCTs commissioned were four who hailed from the Royal Brunei Armed Forces.
Cyberpioneer spoke to OCT Mohd Hishamuddin Bin Hj Marzoki, one of the four Bruneian cadets.
"It was the first time I was away from my family," he said. "But after these nine months, I’m used to it."
What really helped him to settle in was the hospitality of his Singaporean friends, whom he found "really very friendly and very helpful".
According to OCT Hishamuddin, he would "always hang out with [the Singaporeans] and get to know their Singaporean culture."
But regardless of where they come from, both OCTs Sahfahri and Hishamuddin share a common bond: their time together in OCS.
Friday, August 01, 2008
Dead..
I'm tired. I don't understand. It seems like I can never understand why fate has dealt me a similar blow as my past. Somehow I still believe all this a test. A test of my courage and fortitude to pursue bigger things. Yet somehow I can't easily let go of these feelings. I used to blame others alot but yet I have seen nothing wrong to blame except myself for giving myself that inch of hope everyday. I got myself to blame for hoping.. I'm tired. Dear God, what have I done wrong. Why do u let me taste success in everything else except the one I truly treasure? I'm tired.
-heartbroken
Friday, July 18, 2008
Mixed feelings..
Meeting that someone new has been emotional; both in its good ways and bad. I really hope for the best, for I there is nothing else I'd rather do then to be with the special someone for as long as I can. I hope everything will soon iron itself out. She's too good to be true. She's really too good to be true. Somehow I think I'm not even good enough for her. I can't match up to her. Yet, I hope I can give her all I can give. :)
Sunday, July 13, 2008
NDP continued..
Friday, July 11, 2008
Relief..
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Back From Camp.. BIZAD CAMP!
Sunday, June 15, 2008
My Final Farewell..
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
Happiness
Friday, May 30, 2008
The Battle has just begun..
One where weapons are in play instead of the ordinary ball being playfully passed around. I can imagine the bullets flying around and shrapnel throwing itself about all over me in University. I can imagine the professors brandishing weapons of mass destruction at the freshmen at every oppotunity they can get; using their superior terminology of business terms in their pursuit to brainwash the meek freshmen. Seniors in school wielding looks resembling arrows awaiting to be released at the freshmen who steps on their toes. "Ooh.. The freshie!", they'll go. I can imagine the number of bombs that will land on me at the eleventh hour in the moments of madness before the exams. Yet, I'm not afraid. I'm thrilled.
The thrill of it all. The thrill of going through the battlefield I call NUS. Going through NS, I don't really think anything can be tougher than going through the jungles in my LBV and long 4. I'll win the war; battle by battle. Trust a soldier to go through school with a mindset of a soldier. Guess I am a soldier at heart with the discipline and will of an officer. Nothing is impossible. Or should I say IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING!
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Butterflies..
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Thought, Think, Thinking..
I'm getting tired. Tired of the fact that I face the same old thoughts everyday from the people around me. I'm tired; hearing the same old way of moving ahead in life, of buying a new car, of signing on in the Army etc etc. I'm tired of hearing how people get so excited going into a local university and everyone else praising them for it. I'm tired because all those dreams are not my dreams. I'm tired of people not facing up to the reality of the choices they are making in their lives. My heart is telling me to do something else I know I am destined for. My heart is asking me to do it for my family. If I ever stood for something, it has to be this. Jiayou Saf! I can do it. I know I can.
Friday, May 16, 2008
A Chaotic day!
Well after that long afternoon, the all important ice cream outing with Elene, Teck and Xuihui. Lol. Never would have guessed the incredible amount of laughter we got out of this trip to Tom's Palette. It was CHAOS in TOM's Palette! I hope Chronos enjoys the the "feng li shu" aka pineapple tarts I brought for him from Taiwan. And I sure believe that the rest of us had a great time with the owners and their "5 year old" worker playing "the Secret Number"! Esther just can't stop making fun of me I guess. More jokes are on her this time. Had fun the whole night just laughing away. Oh I am sure I wouldn't want her to be my best friend in NUS FASS. I'll run away as far as I can if I ever see her.. Oh well, if she's reading this blog, I guess it won't be bad to praise her for being such a joy to be around and a not-so-bad ice cream scooper. LOL. I wish she just stick to her netball sometimes. Yet, I kind of respect her focused attitude to her beloved sport. Yo, Capitan. I think you made the greatest captain at during your time! The 2 slits above your nose (i.e. eyes) showed everything.LOL!
<< ESTHER aka CAPTAIN 5 Yr old!
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Well, hope I have such "chaotic" days in many times to come! Till my next posting!
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
NDP '08 OEI! & Taiwan Pics!
Oh and some pictures I took in Taiwan!
The scenery was awesome.. Just breathtaking..
An ocean view.. At Kenting, south of Taiwan.
The very popular Ximen shopping district behind me!
Smelly beancurd stallin Shilin Night Market. I had to queue 20 minutes for one bag of 10 pieces. Hell it was worth it!
In the Taipei metro! I think as tourists we really made quite a din in the train. Quite a cool experience being in one of the most efficient metros in the world!
Well, that's all for the photos. Taiwan was fun. Looking forward to more tours in future! NDP next up!
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Admiring from afar..
Admiring from afar, she looks more beautiful than I ever thought she was.
So strong, so passionate. Yet, I can only admire her from afar.
I think the closest I can get is as much as a hug from her and nothing else.
How I wish it could be much more.
Yet I can only admire from afar.
Friday, May 09, 2008
Catching up...
I had lunch with Joshua in the afternoon and I was glad I caught up with him one on one especially since he had the time to. (MC for 2 weeks after an operation is no joke) Glad I had a listen to his plans after his ORD to further his studies. It's great knowing he has plans in mind. Wasn't glad to hear how some of my other dragonboat buddies are doing. At least Josh is focused this time. He's not taking the chance to study for his degree lightly this time. I think he grew alot ever since I knew him from Secondary school. I really admire his discipline in the way he leads his life. I'm glad he's not turning out like some of the rest we know. They lost their way. Josh found something new to turn his attention to.
Ice cream with Xiuhui in the evening was the most interesting part of the day. Glad I made a new friend called Ester at my fav ice cream bar in SG; Tom's Palette. She was an interesting friend who had a strange taste for designing rather peculiar "5-year-old" drawings. No prizes for what her new nickname was. Chillaxed for most of the evening at the Esplanade while catching up with her. I can't believe she remembers all the FO cheers up till now. Ok, I must admit I did feel the same way after I graduated. Yet I swear I don't cheer in public.
Midnight. An old friend and neighbour asked me out to chill at ICE3 aka ICE Cube. Ice cream again and a jolly old teh tarik after that. Delightful for a supper, yet what was most satisfying about the supper was the long talk we had about the reality of life. Zhiming really has his sights going for his business. I'm glad he has his life sorted out. He has nothing to lose. I know he will make it one day.
My life from today onwards will no longer be made of excuses. I just can't except them anymore. I will do what I plan to do no matter what. There is no turning back. 5 years and I will be the person that I want to be. I will be the person. My dreams are still in the back of my head. I believe I will succeed. God willing.
Thursday, May 08, 2008
Is studying in NUS such a big deal?
Friday, May 02, 2008
Missing home..
Monday, March 31, 2008
4 months and counting..
Sunday, March 16, 2008
I believe.
Over the past few months, my perspectives on leadership change ever so significantly because it can be ever so dynamic; never the same the next day. Position counts on certain occasions, but it is how being a friend to the person that leadership can really be made easier. I have definitely see myself change in the way I have become ultra-patient, ultra-tolerant and understanding.
Things are more or less falling into place now. I look forward to the rest of the months with the platoon full of enthusiasm and passion. This has been the work I have been looking for though in a context that may not be all that forgiving. Conciously living each day has been the greatest asset I ever got over the past 6 years for it got me to where I am today. Not many can have as many achievements as myself. I believe I should be proud of each and every one of those achievements. I believe that I will get those to my goals with trust, faith and belief. I will.
I'm thankful for everything that I have right now. I believe I can achieve more.. I believe.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Uber Cool Week!
Just that Thursday, i had a great time basking in the sun, sand and sea in Sentosa with my men from my platoon. I can't believe I had so much fun even though it was frustrating that our Sentosa trip was marred by rain in the afternoon. It was really a chance to see the guys in a different light outside of the Army and honestly, they really made my day. No ordinary men, they can really lead the way to their lives if they really wanted to because of their extraordinary leadership abilities. It was unbelievably fun. haha..
Thinking back, Ifeel great being where I am right now because I know that my future is shaping up with the decisions I am making in my life right now. Having seen the things I have been doing and taken part in. I know I'll make it in the future one day. That goal of mine will always be sticking in my head till the day I reach it. I just know I'll get it. I'll walk the path less beaten and succeed. I just know I will.